Friday, March 28, 2008
Up & Down
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Sixteen-of-March
Add Glitter to Pictures
Is a special day for someone and although i yet spitting out the greeting and wishes for him, in fact i sent him an e-card!Oh!Is a joke to share, hopefully it at least put a smile on your face. I asked by typing in the msn, "have you checked your mailbox?", his replies were,"i work 6-7 days a week, and the Post Office only open 5 1/2 days, so i havent got the time to the post office to collect the card"!I was shocked, and it was funny to read these...xD I have no clue why do you need to collect an electronic card, in abbreviation "e-card" from Post Office?!? Even it is a card, i do not think, you need to head all the ways to Post Office, just to collect the greeting card!If this is the case, i bet, the Post Office is packed like hell....By the way, Happy 16th!!
I have a very peace week, so far, everything is just fine to me, or i should say, as usual or normal, nothing bad, turning out! However, i guess, i am quite tension, as i had a number of nightmares during this week!I hope there is nothing relating to my real life, it is just a dream due to my anxiety!I am quite tired the whole week. Friday, I met up a friend and her mom for lunch, it was alright and again, her mom was brainwashing me again about men!she urged her daughter to get a bf asap!!!*Eyes rolled* and asked whether i could give her a hand introducing her daughter some guys!!!=______________= Well, i am not the agent or middle person who seek couples for the people!Just i cant understand what made them think that i got to know a lot of boys/male friends here!!!>"<
Also, my friend, she bought some gifts in which i am joyful to receive them. I heart them, at least she remembers i like HELLO KITTY!!Yes, no harm to like it as i find it is really cute!!
Next week, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, i have to ring up the law faculty to check my review/remark of exam paper!I am so upset now, please pray hard and please.....Currently, i am busy working on my succession research assignment which is going to due in 2-3 weeks time!I am in a group of 3 aussie guys T____T , yes, you're right, i am the only international student, the only female, the only non-native speaker!!I am stressed like hell!!!!T_T Pray Hard for my everything!!!!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Men and Women
Two friends of mine, whom they name themselves are my friends/closed friend, i just can't understand the reason. Talking about the female friend, she tends not to keep in touch with me when she has a good time with her boyfriend and before she has affairs with her current bf, she tends to missing as well, as she had an enjoyable life out there, partying, clubbing, yamcha-ing, etc... However, when her life turned upside down, the first one she wanna talk with, who? obviously the answer is ME!I just can't help why she can treat her closed friend this way? She never think of of her friend, which is me, perhaps occupy with works or dating(this is impossible, i know, but it may happen in one day) or whatever reason it could be. As such, she just wanted so much me to ring her and assure her. Of course, i never failed to do things for her.....I tried my best to cheerish her and i did check her after 2/3 days after the conversation. You know what, i just can't understand why, why, why, what on earth that stop her to reply my text message...She would only reply immediately if she is not doing okay, such as, having tiff with bf, squabble with loved one, being alone at home, bf busy with works, whatsoever..... Today, while I was waiting the return call from my uni, i rang this gf and after 10 minutes, she said, she wanted to hang up and of course, i wanted to know the reason being a very keipo person and she said to me before, the best time to call her is noon time. I was so doubtful,..Hai!Hiru desu ne!!!Eeto..gogo yo ji desu.Hiru desu!!=_= Ahhhhhh!It was because she was with her bf and at her bf's house. Well, again, i really cannot understand why!!Can someone tell me why why why? You can assume i am ID10T or Innocent or etc.....Remember, when i was with bf that time, a gf rang me and she was so long-winded, talking on the phone nearly 1 hour, from the time I was having dinner with bf ---> finished ----> went to bf's home --> he showered --> he online, still i was on the phone. So, is that mean i am a bad gf? How do you value a friendship? how often you look for your friends? I still believe, i can only be friends with those single & available people. Are all women behaving this way?
Come to men!Well, is about the same too! A friend lost contact with me, well, basically, he is the one who always mentioned to me, we are friends, we are friends. Once, i remembered 3-4 weeks ago, i rang him up because i was so stressful studying, then he was so disguise over the phone call and after 3-4 weeks, he called me back and even text me a message to apologize!!!Is too late to apologize!!!Do you guys apologize to your friends or someone after 3-4 weeks of time and giving you lousy excuses being busy at work/life/etc....I told him, "if there is a will, there is a way..." if you are inconvenient to give your friend a call, text message will do, even you think is too expensive to send a text message merely to apologize, then email!What on earth again that block you contacting your friend or say sorry via email?
On the other hands, another 2 girls i know, they would give me a buzz when they are lonely or HELPLESS, meaning, need some helps or assistance or advices on such and such matter or person. I sometimes find myself, i am so doubtful, am i good at counselling? mediation? It seems like people tend to look for me when they are down down down:( Is that mean i am not good to be their friends?
All these people have forgotten that I am a human-beings, I have feeling, I have my life......i am not always ready for them, they never treat me their friends, then why should i want to so busy body to take care of them? When i was having a shiiiiiiit life, when i was so lonely, where were all these people???All of them i have known for a period of times and even one is childhood friend, this is the way they treat their friends....what is friends for? They forget the concept of friendship...so, never ever look for your friends only when you need them and being selfish when their friends ask for help.
BSB (BackStreet Boys) was held a concert back home!!How much i wish i could be
there, yelling BSB, I Love You!!or NICK!!!I Love you so much, you're hot, sexy,
etc....Yes!Crazy me!I don't care who you are, where you are from, what you did,
as long as you love me.....looking back the things i have done, i was trying to
be someone, play my parts, kept you in the dark, now let me show you the shape
of my heart....I'll never break your heart, i'll never make you cry...oh!I could
still remember hardly the mtv of this song!!and that time i was actually in
Perth, i was intending to steal their poster on the street...loving them to the
max!!!=)
One of my problem solved, so i am now slightly, errr...more than that better now..Thank you so much for my sisters , being there for me, i am so warm inside=)
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Goodbye Yesterday, Hello Tomorrow
On the friday, after heading to the uni, my feeling got even worst, luckily, i wasn't that bad luck, at least at that time, Zaya still turned out and gave me warmest huggies and cheered me up. Thanks so much for being there for me the whole day. She shared about her stories with me in order to make me feel better. I wasnt that bad after all i think, isn't me?
I upset my whole family, they got so upset about me, and i think i should be stronger and do not get envy or jealousy of other people, regardless she is lucky or she isn't...that is none of my business......Sister shared with me the news and i know deep down, they are trying to assure me and make me feel better, i know it and i understand it...but what was in my head is i wasted my time and the $$$$$$$ again, and your dream house may not come so soon.
I believe, and from the series i watched before, so i want to share with you here, "Today you are top of the world, but tomorrow, your life may be turning upside down", meaning life is changeable. I remember a quote i read before, "to change your life, first change your attitude"...all the words that i heard or i read before spinning around in my head...and the reason i am not good, i am brainless or i am not lucky or i am stupid, this is not an ostacle to get success...because i aint good enough, i should not get defeated easily or sad over this, instead i should work harder than anyone else....
Remember, Alycia said to me, "i am a very lucky person indeed, as i was being choosen to challenge all these hardships in my earlier life, and the god wants to train me to become a strong person or a successful woman in the future", so isn't me lucky? What is more, I am the luckiest one because i am the only one who could further my studies in overseas amongst my siblings, the chance to experience more in life, the chance to know more people, the chance to widen my eyes and have a broader mindset, a chance to have a better education and a better life,isn't me lucky enough?
So, i gonna waive byebye to yesterday, and welcome my tomorrow with a big smile on my face...My 2 years old niece said to me in the video call last night before i doze off, "Aunty, have a good sleep tonight and tomorrow is a better day!", she is so lovely and I am blissful to have all these carings, so i am lucky....
Yesterday, Zaya persuaded me to join the rest to the DFO (Direct Factory Outlet) shopping, thank you for all of you giving me a good day, as well as the phone call from Esther. I had funs yesterday with my friends, so i will get better today and better better tomorrow and in the coming days.
= Byebyebye Yesterday, I open my arms to welcome my better tomorrow =